I was sitting on a wooden bench in front of the warden’s office and waiting my best friend, Adibah Mustapha to come and went to dining hall to take our dinner together. On our way, suddenly my head felt so pain. I stopped my steps and my face became pale. Adibah was panic and asked me what happen but I only gave her my smile. Pour smile. As I returned from the dining hall, one of our warden looked at my face and questioned me why. I just left up my shoulder.
“Siti, today’s practise will start at 2 pm.” Fiza was yelled. “okey.” I yelled it back. During the school lessons, I cannot pay my attention in the class as usual. There was something in my mind but I don’t know why. Around twelve in the afternoon, I took my lunch with my friends. Later, we went back to the dorm and I had my short nap. At 1.45 pm, I was already at Astaka with Adibah and my others teammates and started run and warming up. After half an hour, we were taking our own ball and start the training. Without my permission, one of the ball hit my head in a blank of an eye and I was collapse to the ground. I tried to stand by myself but i can’t do it. My sight became too blurred than before.
The next day, there was an assembly held in the hall. Although I felt uncomfortable on that day but I forced myself to attend the school’s assembly. Suddenly I saw the earth became dark and my body felt lighter like a piece of paper flied blew by air. The hall became chaotic. Adibah and two prefects brought me to the sick bay. I was placed there. After all, I whispered in my heart, why was i being like this ? ! What happen to me ? I met my handball’s teacher to pick me up to the clinic. There, i was having my medical check up. Suddenly, the doctor told me to do MRI. My heartbeat stopped for a while.
After three days, the doctor called my teacher to take the result. The doctor said that i had a disease. This illness don’t have any cure for this time. Rare people having this people. Because of this disease i will slowly loss my ability of myself and i cannot live within a longer time. It was not a cancer but something disturbed my main vein in the brain. Behind the time, i cannot walk properly, i cannot eat by myself, i cannot move my muscle to perform any work. But the pathetic part is i cannot talk anympore. My tears streaked down my checks like the heavy downpour. No one knew about my illness including you, Adibah. I am sorry. I don’t want everybody felt pity to me.
Afterword, i stopped playing handball because i know i cannot run anymore. My studies become too worse. Therefore, i always talked to Adibah that my muscle at my leg felt too pain. My pain was endless. Now i cannot balance myself. It was easy for me to kiss the ground and my steps became slower like a penguin steps. People surrounded me always asked me why i be like that?. I just answered that my legs were injured. I am sorry for lying all of you. My parents also don’t know about this. I guess i can kept this secrete forever but something bad happens and i know the time was came for me to tell the truth.
As i opened my eyes as usual early in the morning, i felt something different. There was a burden towards me. I decided to take my bath and threw away the nonsense think. When i wanted to start my walks, oh, no! I cannot move my leg. I did not felt anything at my both legs. I tried to pinch my legs hardly but, still the same. I can’t feel anything! “ADIBAH!!!!” i shouted your name early in the morning, all our dormmates wake from the sleep. I cried. Adibah tried to help me to stand up but i cant’t! God! I cannot accepts this. Then, warden called my parents and i was brought to hospital.
To my best friend forever, i am sorry because of me you don’t wants to involve the handball’s tournaments that you had been longing for. I am sorry for wasting your time accompanied me at the wards every day. A lot of thank you for being my friend. I know that my time is come. If i can i want to continue this story but i have to stop here. I lack of energy. As i died, i want you to know that i love you forever because you are my only best friend i have. Proud to say that you are like my twin. You can feel and understand what i feel. I am happy having a perfect friend like you. not to forget, open my drawer and take a white necklace from there. That is for you friend. Always remember me. Last words,
FRIENDSHIP NEVER DIE!
Love,
Siti.,
Adibah closed the diary. The last letter from her best friend was placed there. She tries to stop the tears but, it hard to do. She hold the necklace and she will never let it go far from her. That is her spirits! Her life spirit! Even though her friend had passed year about last 10 years but, the memories always be there. In her mind. Now Adibah is the famous doctor. Doctor Adibah. She promise to herself to find out the cure for the disease that take away her friend live. She looks at her daughter. She give her best friend’s name to his child. Yes. Siti Nur Hafizah. Her best friend till her die!